It coulda been swell.
"You know, the whole thing about perfectionism. The perfectionism is very dangerous. Because of course if your fidelity to perfectionism is too high, you never do anything. Because doing anything results in…it’s actually kind of tragic because you sacrifice how gorgeous and perfect it is in your head for what it really is." — David Foster Wallace
I am frozen by the fear of failure. So frozen that I never even try. The DFW quote captures what goes on in my head. I have ideas. I have plans. I never follow through because I know they will never be what I want. This in turn causes frustration with myself and self loathing. I don’t know why I can’t just try and fail. Who is watching, waiting on me to fail? No one but me.